solitary, outcast, cast down, withdrawn and forlorn. I’m sad….but that’s not good enough to express how sad. Unhappy, gloomy, heartbroken, dismal & heartsick,melancholy, hurting, dark, gloomy, pitiful, heavy hearted, dejected, lamentable and oppressed. I’m lost….but that’s not good enough to express how lost I feel I am….. Confused, adrift, disoriented, gone, and astray, wandering, vanished, devastated, annihilated, dissipated, obliterated, eradicated, erased, wasted, vanquished, defeated…. I’ve strayed it seems. I can’t find my way out
I can’t find my way through I’m tired of pushing against life
I’m tired of struggling to survive Sick of the process
Sick of being a leftover
Tired of the criticism Worn out by the journey
I don’t want to hold on I don’t want to hang in I don’t want to keep running
I don’t want to be patient
I don’t want to get upI don’t want to go over, under or through I know what I want to do…
Stare out the window til the sun goes down
Sip through a straw til I don’t hurt any more
I’m giving up today and giving in for now
But I’m not going to forget about what’s right Oh, God I’m looking up where’s my Father? Can’t see Him
Don’t feel Him
His voice is silent…. I’m falling…..
catch me if you want to
catch me if you can….
Will you break my fall or just break me…?
You make the call.
I’m done talking. But I’m not done praying. There are no words left to say….
For now, I am drained!